Stucked

I can't online these few days and a lot of things
mostly bad things happened
so frustrated so desperate
yet couldn't online to give a piece of my mind

when we were far far away
we thought we were abandoned
but when we were back
i think things are still the same
at least this is what i saw, what i felt, what i experienced

i thought coming back here will give us a closer relationship
between us and office
yet there isn't the case
now we even not going to to have class in BYS office anymore
but i gotta be there to online anyway..

We are FSKB students... the irony is
we spent three quaters of our student lives in other people's faculty
our office not even in the campus area
or in campus but it's so secretive that only forensic students know the route
do we fit in?? regardless bangi or KL.. do we?? frankly??

i am so sick so tired of doing last minute works
or being blamed for some other people's fault
but what can i do??
i guess the only solution is deal with it
i guess this is the way it always will be, nothing can change it..
nor how many ISO accrediation we can get
nor how successful the 5S system launching like it will improve anything

i want to explain something
so that we won't be always told "why korang suka buat benda last minute??"

we handed in our animal ethical application forms 2 weeks ago
i received a sms from office SO on friday 5:15pm
that we go office on coming Monday to proceed the application
luckily SO was OT-ing, i went there to get the forms
so that i can meet my sp and co-sp on weekend
FYI, My sp is in Kajang, my co-sp is in HUKM
then on friday 5:45pm, only i was told that the application due date is actually on monday

we got 1001 signature to get, like Amazing Race
we called, we sms, busy contacting sp, co-sp, kpf, kppsdkg or like annoying
we even drive to lecturer's house late at night to get her signature
1 at kajang, 1 at HUKM and outstationed, 2 are super duper busy with court cases
luckily tuan amidon had a wedding party on sunday
the only good things happened recently
we manage to get the half of the signatures settled

at the neck of time, when we were getting the biggest signature
then only we were "tendang keluar" that our forms not complete
and luckily again my sp happened to be in KKL for lecture (Thank god)
i settled down 1 form, and found that the kppsdkg office lost my another form
and my sp already went back kajang

very sorry if this came true, but i have a very bad feeling
we will be "tendang keluar" again by BAKA soon
becoz "this one" not enough, or "that one" not correct
our beloved almighty kpf couldn't help us anymore, his power already taken by kppsdkg

this is only the starting of doing theses - animal ethics application
i can imagine how many application i need to make
borrow apparatus, borrow lab, claim money with resits..
and i wonder...

this dec my sp will fly overseas
i'm not even sure will she come back for my viva or my convo
while my co-sp is in HUKM..
i'm a bit lost, and i don't know
i guess the only person who can help me is my busy kpf
and of coz after "n" times of e-mail communication breakdown
can u see how am i going to live my final senior year??

Dear coursemates, some of you are not affected by this animal ethic on-call disaster
if u don't understand how we feel, we couldn't blame you and we bless you
we don't need to complaint, we already complaint so many times and does anything ever changed??
it's ok.. we are tough, we are strong
we used to fix our things in last minutes under "kelam-kabut"ness
like we always know the magic golden finger twitch...
relax-la... on-call je kan??

by the way, i really got a lot of things to say
i need a place for me to shout out loud
and thank u for reading up
sorry for wasting ur time
and sorry to ter-menyinggung your perasaan
my sincere apology
(^-^)